Profiled.
A PROFILE OF ME


I don't consider myself a normal person. There is a sound and concise logic behind everything that I do, even though several of my personality traits are in contradiction.

I think the majority of people are stupid. This may be related to the fact that I have an IQ of 185.

I aim to play the hero. Self-sacrifice is a way of life. I am constantly referred to as "the white knight" and when I was a kid my biggest dream was to save the world. I still want to save the world and I think it's possible, although I logically know that it's mostly impossible. Several aspects of my personality contradict this, but it does not make it less true.

I am arrogent, to the point of being obnoxious. This is something that I do on purpose, to preserve my small amounts of self-confidence. The logic is, I always expect a fall. For an instance to get to me, it would have to chew away through the walls of arrogance and hopefully be gone before it reaches my confidence. This is something that is not perfected, because it was developed recently in order to counter-act the goings-on before and after I moved across the country.

I am calm about violent situations and have the tendancy to put myself in one on purpose. For example, there was a shooting at a club across the street from the place I used to live. My roommate was freaking out about her own safety while two dead bodies were loaded into the back. Not only did I find it fascinating, I also had an extreme urge to start going to the club. I think this may have something to do with the self-sacrifice point made earlier.

I enjoy challenging authority and messing with peoples heads. I look, and on several layers am, too innocent to be suspected. This is not me being arrogant, I have had several occasions where this had been a reality. One of the many reasons I believe I do this, is because I enjoying trying to talk my way out of it. It is more of the journey, than the destination.

I have more of an attachment to my cat than I do to any member of my family.

I am, in my own opinion, a medical mystery. Despite massive amounts of stress and goings-on that would drive most people to suicide or other derastic measures, my blood pressure (related directly to stress level, known to cause heart-attacks if too high) is always perfect. As well, I tend to randomly go on junk-food and sugar binges. My blood-glucose levels are always perfect.

I thrive on conflict. I believe this is the cause of the fact that I am very confrontational.

My self-image is not constant. When I wake in the morning, I look at my hands. If my fingers look short and fat, or if they look long and feminine, then I know how I feel.

I have the ability to mask myself. I can look completely blank, or convey and pull off any emotion at any given time. I tend to use this to my advantage.

It makes me feel uncomfortable if people are nice to me. This is because I am not used to it.

I really hate it when people say please, thank-you or apologize. I don't know why.

I find it difficult to stick to things, getting bored with them very easily and moving on to another thing, leaving a trail of un-finished things behind me.




If you have any points that you observe about me that are not on this list, please let me know.